Falling Into Place!

I just have to write because I am so RELIEVED!

I have really been struggling these past few months with what to do in life. I have changed my major and thought of many, many different ways to go. Yet, nothing seemed to feel completely right.

Secretely, in my mind I had thought about moving back to Provo and going to UVU again. They have a really good dance education program that I have always been interested in. Utah State doesn't have one :( Well, I was chatting with one of my best friends Kati and she mentioned that maybe i should come back to Provo. It was crazy to me because I hadn't mentioned this to anyone. But it really got me seriously thinking about it. So, I looked into the program, prayed about it, and I finally feel at PEACE with my school decision, and I am excited to start school! I haven't felt that way in a long time. AND I am so excited to live with Kati.
Kati and I are extremely close. I tell her EVERYTHING. And man are our phone bills going to love the change too because we talk a LOT. And I don't mean a little every day but when we talk it's a good hour conversation. It will be so nice to live with her, I can't wait!

So THEN- besides school, I haven't been sure what to do this summer. I am getting sick of Logan. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Utah State and i will ALWAYS be an Aggie at heart :) But I'm tired of the same people, the same routine, and so forth. I just need a change. Well, my awesome sister and brother in law are letting me go back to live with them again! I'll work there and have a fun summer with them. I am SO excited!

I really can't wait for the changes that are about to take place. I am sad to leave my friends, and leave in the summer where people play a lot, go to the pool, have late nights and enjoy college life. But there's no denying the happiness I feel in the changes that are to come. I am so ready :)

Kati and I were talking about the changes and she mentioned how crazy it is that I have been searching for what to do for SO long, and all of the sudden things fell into place QUICK! That's just the joy of life at this age. Well, life in general! But it's good. It's very good!

I'll keep you posted! :)

DAY 03

DAY 03
YOUR FIRST LOVE

WARNING: You will probably be bored. This is for my benefit and this is very much a PERSONAL, JOURNAL like entry. So don't feel that you have to read it. :) Please. haha!

Ok, as you can see- I haven't done very good at this day by day challenge. That's not necessarily because I haven't had time, or haven't wanted to write. I have. BUT...I've been dreading this day! My first love? I really wanted to change this and make up my own DAY 03. I don't want to write about this!

Why? Because really, I don't know! I have never said the "L" word and don't plan to until I AM in love. However, I truly feel that people come into your life for a reason and you really come to love those people for that! So even if I wasn't "in love" with them, I "love" them. make sense? So it doesn't hurt to write about the things that I loved and learned :)

Side note: There are SO many people I've dated that have influenced me. But for the sake of this post, I'll just write about the ones who influenced me that I have officially "dated" and had relationships with!

So.... that brings me to the question. Every relationship I've been in has taught me a lot. Where to start. I'll start in high school. It's funny to think that a high school relationship could mean a lot to someone, but they did! So, lets start at the beginning. Kade. Kade was the boy that made ME want to be better. Kade got along great with my family and we had a fun connection with them. The thing I loved most about Kade was that he always told me how he loved my values and the way that I lived my life. He told me how I was an example to HIM. That meant a lot to me not only to feel appreciated, but it really made ME appreciate MY values as well. I will always live that way and Kade taught me that a boy SHOULD appreciate that in a girl =)

Second, there was Justin. Justin was a great friend all through high school and before we started dating. Having that friendship BEFORE a relationship was the best thing that could have happened. We were already so open and honest with each other and had such a fun time together always. Justin was someone I looked up to and really felt myself around. I dated him my JR. year and we definitely had our share of rough times! He moved to college and there were constantly problems, but we remained close. I then "sent him on a mission" haha. Yes, a missionary. But really, it was good for us! He wanted me to date, and that, I did. And I found someone else.... BUT that is the best part of Justin. We are STILL friends. After everything we still are close. That's why I love that we were friends to begin with. I could tell Justin anything and that's what good friends do! He is married now and we obviously don't talk much, but I honestly couldn't be happier for him!

Lastly, and honestly most influential to me, is Jason. I met Jason through a blind date sort of that my friend BEGGED me to go on. It was an awkward first date, yet really fun! That next week, Jason planned something for us EVERY day that week so that we could hang out. Just the little things in order to see me every day. Well, it worked. I fell for him hard, and then I moved to provo to go to school. We had our struggles and I blame a lot of that on the distance and timing. I was at a new point in my life where I was on my own. It was new for me and I enjoyed going out and doing new things. That was hard on jason because he felt so opposite and wanted things to grow between us. This caused lots of contention and hard times for sure. However, we had some great things going. Jason taught me a lot about the gospel and was such an example to me! He is such an independent person and very motivated. Things ended roughly, and it was probably the hardest thing I've ever gone through. (This is why I didn't want to write about DAY 03!) Anyway, we decided it would be best to go our seperate ways and move on. It was a good decision, yet extremely hard. It's still hard on me to this day. I have my hard moments and I still love this boy! He has such a unique personality that brings out the fun in anyone! Things happen for a reason and we have both realized that. We both want what is best for each other and that's to just move on :) I'll always be greatful for the things he taught me, even though others might not see that. The week Jason and I split, my institute teacher happened to play us a song in class. The song was from Wicked called "for good" and it really hit home. It explains how I feel very well. You can see it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzrGFQysfYU I truly wouldn't be the person that I am today if I hadn't have met Jason. But the tears in my eyes are telling me that I'm done writing. YAY! =)

Sorry for such a boring post, but someday (hopefully not TOO far away) I'll be able to write about my true love :)

For now, Have a wonderful day!

-Me

DAY 02

DAY 02- YOUR PARENTS

I am excited about this day because I really could write a whole lot about my parents. But I'll try not to make this TOO big of a post. I've been at home this weekend and realized that before I wrote this, I should go downstairs and look at our boxes of pictures to find a few. Well, finding just a few is impossible. I spent way too long just looking through random pictures. It's hilarious! Anyway.......Here we go :)

These Are My Parents =) I had to put this picture on because of my mom's eye shadow. It's a full on rainbow and it cracks me up. She said it was so in style....and that makes me laugh even harder! What were the early 90's like???!! haha. Ooh goodness. :)

My mom, dad and I went up to an area where my dad hunts. We rode the four-wheelers around and shot a little. She's a good sport! ....And she will probably kill me for posting this picture. But I could have done worse ;)

My mom and I at Rockette practice. The mom's would come do a dance for us the day before Region Competition. I always loved seeing our moms dance! It's so funny! I don't have a picture on my computer, but my dad always participated in "Popettes". They would dance at the Rockette Invitational at the end of the year in front of everyone! My dad would get so into it and want to practice all the time. It meant so much to me! My parents always supported me in my dancing, and still do today!

My dad has these masks that are famous at my house. He used to scare my friends and I all the time with these! He still wears this mask. I love it. This is us at a daddy daughter Rockette halloween party :)

My dad and I would always go on a daddy daughter camp-out each summer and go fishing. I always loved it, but recently I've gotten into the whole idea of it! My dad has taught me to fly-fish and i enjoy going so much! I love doing all the "guy stuff" with my dad. I just took Hunters Safety and can hopefully go hunt with him sometime soon!

My parents and I at graduation.

Really, what would we do without parents? I sure don't know what I'd do without mine. Like the other day for example. I was at home for the weekend (thank goodness) and needed to go to my hair appointment, when my car wouldn't start. My mom told me just to take hers and we'll deal with it later. By the time I had come home, my parents had already towed my car to Big O and it was getting fixed. They then let me drive their car around all weekend. This is a small example of 100,000,000,000,000 examples to tell! I sure do love them =)

DAY 01

DAY 01- INTRODUCE MYSELF

This seems silly, but I don't really know where to start!

This is me: A pretty simple girl.

I am very easy going, go with the flow personality.

I love to have fun, but I love to just "chill" and not do a thing!

I'm a girly girl, and a sporty/dirt lovin' girl when I want to be.

I love dancing more than anything and miss it like crazy.

I secretly like playing the piano. I just wish I was better at it.

I love the color purple!

I like a good steak and potatoe meal whenever I can!

I am a family girl to the max. I don't let things get to me, yet I let everything get to me sometimes!

I love baths. LOVE.

Another love: Shoes. Flip Flops. High Heels.

The older I get, the more emotional I get. (Thanks mother dear)

I love a good chick flick, and I love a good scary movie.

I could watch TLC/ TBS all day long if I could. Sometimes I do...

Really....I could go on for a while, but I'll stop.

Basically, I'm not hard to get to know well.

I wear my heart on my sleeve.

=)

Day By Day Challenge!!

Lately I have really been into my blog. (I may not post much or SHOW my interest), but I really have been wishing that I was better at writting. I was on facebook this morning (shocker) and a friend had mentioned her "blog fever". So of course I have to look at her blog, and she had a 30 days challenge. A post for every day to help you bloggers out there know me a little better, and a fun little challenge to help myself! I stole it from her and am going to do it myself! :) It goes something like this.......

Day 01- Introduce Yourself

Day 02- Your Parents Day 03- Your First Love

Day 04- What You Ate Today

Day 05- Your Definition of Love

Day 06- Your Day

Day 07- Your Best Friend

Day 08- A Moment

Day 09- Your Beliefs Day 10- What You Wore Today

Day 11- Your Siblings

Day 12- What's in Your Bag

Day 13- This Week Day 14- What You Wore Today

Day 15- Your Dreams

Day 16- Your First Kiss

Day 17- Your Favorite Memory

Day 18- Your Favorite Birthday

Day 19- Something You Regret

Day 20- This Month

Day 21- Another Moment

Day 22- Something That Upsets You

Day 22- Something That Makes You Feel Better

Day 24- Something That Makes You Cry

Day 25- A First

Day 26- Your Fears

Day 27- Your Favorite Place

Day 28- Something That You Miss

Day 29- Your Aspirations

Day 30- One Last Moment

I had told myself yesterday that I was going to Blog.....and that never happened. SO today I am going to start with TWO of these challenge days and I'll feel a little better about my un-kept promise to myself! ENJOY! =)

I've decided I'm a liar..

I always promise myself to update this more, and I never do. My bad. So from now on I'm not promising that. Then, maybe I actually will :)

I love reading friends/families blogs frequently and I always wish that I did it more. My journal AND blog have been lacking, and it's

starting to get to me! So, here go some updates!

First of all, it's 2011?! Holy cow.....time flies.

This may be as a shock to some, so sit down! I.....ran a 5K. Yep....and I'm still alive. So 5K's are not that long. But for me, this was huge. I DO NOT RUN. I got a text from Brooke one day asking if I wanted to run one with her. I decided I kind of wanted to just for the fact that it is something I would never think to do. Ever! So we did it. Brooke's friend Steph ran it with us and it was so fun! (As fun as running could be) Main point of the story....I did it! phew!

Grandpa's 90th Birthday! I can't believe he is 90. My grandpa (I call him buddy) is amazing. I look up to this man so much! We had a big get together to celebrate and it turned out so great. I sure love him :)

FRIENDS! What would I do without friends?! Lately I've been having so much fun. My roomates and I are having so much fun, and I am meeting lots of new and good friends. The friends you have really make or break your college experience, and I am so blessed with good friends!

Vacation! For my spring break (a week after spring break..) I went to St. George with Kati, Tayler and Kristen. We stayed in St George and just relaxed. You don't realize how nice it is to JUST RELAX until you are away from home and away from the distractions. It was so nice. Best part of the trip was this though..........

Beetles Love! We went to a show in Vegas and it. was. amazing! Vegas is such a nasty, dirty place. But it's also just one of those places you have to go to haha. Going to a show makes it all worth it! The production is amazing. Oh how I wish I could do those things! WOW!

BMK (Breanne McKell Kristen) The three of us will never part :) I love these girls so much! We always find some way to meet up (Even if it's only twice a year) but we make it happen! This time it was for McKell's sweet baby boy Camden's baby blessing! It's crazy to think of the different spots we're at in our lives, but we still get along so well. I truly have such great life long friends!

Well, to be honest, I'm still not great at this blogging thing and I'm getting frustrated with how long this is taking me! So I'm done. There is my update, and like I said: I'm not going to promise one anytime soon. Then maybe I actually will :)